i've bin tryna wryt for a whyl naw,
but i just culdnt get nutn out!

call it a 'block'
or the numbness caused by all the nothingness i'm seemingly engulfed in!

i'm tired ov the status quo,
anticipating the next phase!

which promises to be fun & visibly productive!

tryn so had not to loose that glow,
the one that kips me goin',

constantly reminded that its all just a phase,
that'll surely pass,

takin' stock ov ma lyf,
so i'd knw if anythin's bin added,
(which shuld be the norm);
& removn' dos ov no value worthsoeva,

seemed hard at first,
but wen yu apply dat exceptional forsight,

yu'd get to see the bigger picture,
...easy to pin point wat doesnt fit in!

more lyk defragmentation,
it gets yu workn' @ optimum capacity!

i knw whr i'm headed,
nnam said i shuld constantly think it,
even if it doesn't look it @ the tym.

dnt nid to explain myself to no one,

impress just the necessary,
trample on the rest if the nid be...

i knw, 'sounds a lil harsh' ryt?
the world rili is!

the earlier that realisation is noted & adhered to, the better!

'48 Laws of Power',
a must rid for evryone.

in the 13" x 15" sized room,
ur wonderin' how i knw ryt!

dnt wori, satisfyin ur curiosity aint a biggie, its upholdin' the credibility ov my written words that matter to me!..Lol!

i got to knw wen we bought that nicely patterned brown rug dat fits perfectly!

wiv the bed @ the very center ov the room,
touching one ov the walls, directly beneath the window!
Plus the curtains drapin' just ova it!

shoes scattered in an awkward manner @ one corner ov the room,
forgotn ever since my last trip to town!

whr i was meant to be my sister's date to sum fancy dinner in honor ov Medical 'House officers'
passin' out from their course @ FMC (a small, but lucrative detour on their path to the zenith ov their career as Medical Doctors),
but just lyk in the movies...

i got my dates rung & hence stood my luvin sis up,
a whol day prior to my supposed outing!

next r these hangers!
i wonder what they r stil doin' lyin around, almost as lazily as myself @ d moment!

tho' i tink i just might hav a clue!!


DORCHESTER!
i dnt smoke that crap, i wonder wat its doin' here!
Okay i get, i prolly used it for a refill for those small change purchases ov my daily dose (no matter how minimal) ov cigarettes!

i knw, i knw,
yu think its a dirty habit ryt?!
am tryna stop tho' & yu knw hw dat goes

okay,
it all makes sense naw!

the two hangers r both green & whyt,
& the dorchester cigarette pack is a splash ov fine green!
Finer than that ov the hanger tho',
but it doesnt matter...

dont tell me yu dont get it yet??
its 'green - white - green', dumb dumb! Lol!

i've been known to hav a knack for patriOtiSm*

long arguments bout how its not totali the govt's fault,

and how its our combined efforts that'll only get nigeria to wher she shuld be!

anyways thats that for that! Lol! (dumb, i knw!!...maybe i want yu to think i'm stupid!...'i'd suprised yu!', Lol)

my lil bathroom-sized mirror!
yu knw i have a thing for mirrors, ryt?

nyways, just used it to checkout sumtn yu rili dnt wnt to knw bout!

the bigger one,
a wrought ironed 'rili bIG' mirror wiv all 'em swirls on the sides!

lookin' @ it every mornin' wen i wake up , gives me that unphantomable joy!
yu cant understand even if yu tried!




just hrd 'nwa aba' say sumtn!
- 'this lyf na improvement, improvement' -

concise english translation!
- 'may the best ov ur todays be the worst ov ur 2moroS' -

i'm here fuming,

i can see smoke (literally),
but i doubt they're frm my ears!

twit's @ it again!,
she doesn't quite get it!

i _stnd if a beef's cookn,
wen i'm rung tho'...

but she's miles away,
& on the fone!

& stil thinks the pic she painted
(the one in her head),
is ryt!

based on her interpretatns
ov whr i am;
& prolly wat i'm capable ov!

but i wish she were ryt,
then dis wuld be easier to bear!

i'd try not to let this dampen my spirits,

i'm wiv the guys,
same ol', same ol' !

we're stil al bout that book,
'the rudiments ov the loose cigar'

it brings up discussions,
sumtyms arguments

it has a way of doin' such!
But its fun nonetheless,

despite all that's hapnin arnd me,
i'm fully aware ov my stomach; churnin away!

wat's for brkfst,
(my head's teln me)

chuka just came arnd!
His first spoken words,

not a complete sentence,
just a phrase,

...'i'm hungry' !!!

ok!,
that makes two ov us

i'm stil countin,
on seemingly hopless days lyk dis,
the more the merrier!

tc's down,
& prolly has sum ingredients too!

i rili dnt nid leeches,
so won't count 'em!

wat do i hav asides
a gas burner, sum rice,
cookin' utensils
& 'the tech. knw how'??!

two green notes & a red one!,
i doubt i'm ready to relinquish

i stil hav lil nids asides hunger to meet!

ok,
God rili does kip to his promises!

'nwa aba' just came in naw,
& added a blue note to pack!

nw i can prioritize!
tinned tomatoes can come in.

imagine i'm thinkin' mor lyk sardines,
& they r thinkn fuel!

Pro Evolution Soccer 9!

i dnt do soccer,
so its their fantasy they'd be livin'

nah!
i aint weird (i knw watchu myt be thinkn)
a guy who doesn't play video games!

i'm more ov adventure & racin'

Need for Speed - Underground!
totali addictive!

i haven't read my 'janelle brown'
in a whyl

i miss it,
but i want the feelin to last longer!

bak to my cookin'

i hav dishes to do first,
but havnt' summoned the courage yet

they all think i'm staln for sumtn else
lil do they knw!

oh!
my aux cable stil works!
Chuka's i-touch is playn

a song's blastn thru my stereo speakers,

i knw the song, but too tired to think up its name!

my baby's comin' today!
yeah imma daddy (dint i tel yu?..Lol)

i knw i cant wait to see her,
but she's not the only one i cant wait to see!

my atm card!
in a bid to frugal, i made her go home wiv it!

thats y i had me countin
two green notes & a red one!
whilst i'm used to starin' @ Dr. Clement Isong's face! & the lyks ov 'em!

yeah i knw,
change is constant!

naw i knw all i hav to do is wait this one out!
13/12/09.

He’s life is so full ov intriguin’ stories,
I could actually win a ‘BEST SELLER’ just writtin’ bout him,
& i’m sure yu dont expect me to say the name,
CoNSIDERIN i rily wanna win that best seller and more.
So which do yu want first,
The run in wiv another man’s(a strong man) gurl,
That shit is crazy,
Dnt know wat he was thinkin’,
But I’m way too sure if it were me,
i’d refrain from having any form ov physical confrontation,
Till i know my face aint on the line...lol


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OR
The homosexual who wanted to literally ‘burst his ass’ way bak in sec skul,
Before i continue wiv this,
I hate ‘em wiv the whole ov me,
And i’m having goosebumps already, just writting bout ‘em.
I aint guessing again, like i normally do
I’m sure that aint ryt,
In the sight ov God & that ov man too.
Then coming to my own line ov sight,
Yu’d hav to forgive me for seemingly sounding vulgar & stuff,
But i’m ov the skul ov thot that pussy goes wiv that dude,
Dunno wat other way they expect HIM, way over there
to make his initial intentions known to ‘em,
Other than the shape and sizes ov THOSE things,
Even a blind man knows they go together.
Iron sharpeneth iron,
We dont need SHARP;
We nid soft, gentle & hitch free...
Anyways,
Bak to my story...
He sumhow found his way into this prefect’s domitory (wonder who chooses leaders lyk that),
Stranded at night and in dire nid ov wher to lay his head,
Apparently,
He had been ‘FAC’in his BOOKs’
and lost all track ov time during prep,
and by the time the realisation
that he had been takin’ this acada biz a lil too far hit him,
his dormitory had been locked and thus, found his way to that room
(sounded like i wasnt too sure bout how he GOT thERE initially ryt?)
‘nyways,
long after he was meant to hav being making melodies,
tho’ unpleasant, wiv his snoring...
he felt sum1 pull down his shorts,
& hurriedly spat at his buttocks area (sure he was in a hurry, lil did he know!)
I’m guessing for lubrication of sum sort
Then proceeded to oiling his ‘thing’ at another part ov the room,
Givin my friend here,
ample time to save his butt from the drilling exercise.
Little did he know that N5 razor blade he bought earlier on wuld come in handy...
actuali got that for his pencil, but ended up sharpening sumtn else
or rather, only just started sharpening
before Mr. Homo there let out a loud cry,
not minding wat ppl would do or SAY(this kinda news spread around quickly) bout his despicable act,
or wher his prey had run off to.

dont know what i did to recieve a stinker like that...
but i'm forced to almost agree wit the part ov it that said,
i need to grow up and become a man like ma mates...

been tryin to get an innate description dat drives the point home bout the 'growing up' thingy...!!
wat makes a man grown up,
just like those in the same age group wit him???

i'm 21 and dont own a car ov ma own..
but most guys ma age now do.
COULD THAT BE WHAT SHE MEANT???

cos frankly,
she's in the same skul wiv me and havin' a ride,
aint so big a deal...
and based on a known fact,
ha neva wantn to go home.
dnt know the real reason,
but maybe she lives in a place,
so BAD! its hurt to be associated wiv it,
around the kinda life she so voraciously built for herself
or RATHER! trys to fit in to!!!

...bak to ma point ab initio...
based on all this,
she gets to hang out in ma town, ABUJA!!
wher to most very fortunate ppl,
money's just a piece ov paper,
and it so easily rolls in continuously.

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i'm not as angry as i was when i started writing this,
so i guess i've lost that inspiration and zeal i started wiv...
dont think the fact that i was angry when i started this,
might hav influenced the image in which i so vividly potrayed ma thots,
its only helped me explain so unequivocally/unambiguously the point to all this...
she's got some seriously complicated inferiority complex issues,
and we can't blame it all on her now,
cos we know wher she's coming from...

i tink i've still got a bit ov that anger in me,
so i guess i'd keep writing.

most guys hav runs on the side that fetches 'em so serious change,
to throw about evry now and then,
and consequently get the added benefits associated wit money...GURLS,
and by the size ov ur pocket, a lot more gurls..
always ready and available ovce you've got the cash to spend.

should this be what'll make me grown up,
or acting ma age???

there's so much money the illegal way,
and most ov this is gotten that way,
and nobody really cares...

i could swing that way,
but does it make me a better man than someone making a honest living,
or waiting for the ryt time for things to play out???

i know we all do rung,
one way or the other,
but some rung have got to carry a greater penalty than others!!!