i've bin tryna wryt for a whyl naw,
but i just culdnt get nutn out!

call it a 'block'
or the numbness caused by all the nothingness i'm seemingly engulfed in!

i'm tired ov the status quo,
anticipating the next phase!

which promises to be fun & visibly productive!

tryn so had not to loose that glow,
the one that kips me goin',

constantly reminded that its all just a phase,
that'll surely pass,

takin' stock ov ma lyf,
so i'd knw if anythin's bin added,
(which shuld be the norm);
& removn' dos ov no value worthsoeva,

seemed hard at first,
but wen yu apply dat exceptional forsight,

yu'd get to see the bigger picture,
...easy to pin point wat doesnt fit in!

more lyk defragmentation,
it gets yu workn' @ optimum capacity!

i knw whr i'm headed,
nnam said i shuld constantly think it,
even if it doesn't look it @ the tym.

dnt nid to explain myself to no one,

impress just the necessary,
trample on the rest if the nid be...

i knw, 'sounds a lil harsh' ryt?
the world rili is!

the earlier that realisation is noted & adhered to, the better!

'48 Laws of Power',
a must rid for evryone.

in the 13" x 15" sized room,
ur wonderin' how i knw ryt!

dnt wori, satisfyin ur curiosity aint a biggie, its upholdin' the credibility ov my written words that matter to me!..Lol!

i got to knw wen we bought that nicely patterned brown rug dat fits perfectly!

wiv the bed @ the very center ov the room,
touching one ov the walls, directly beneath the window!
Plus the curtains drapin' just ova it!

shoes scattered in an awkward manner @ one corner ov the room,
forgotn ever since my last trip to town!

whr i was meant to be my sister's date to sum fancy dinner in honor ov Medical 'House officers'
passin' out from their course @ FMC (a small, but lucrative detour on their path to the zenith ov their career as Medical Doctors),
but just lyk in the movies...

i got my dates rung & hence stood my luvin sis up,
a whol day prior to my supposed outing!

next r these hangers!
i wonder what they r stil doin' lyin around, almost as lazily as myself @ d moment!

tho' i tink i just might hav a clue!!


DORCHESTER!
i dnt smoke that crap, i wonder wat its doin' here!
Okay i get, i prolly used it for a refill for those small change purchases ov my daily dose (no matter how minimal) ov cigarettes!

i knw, i knw,
yu think its a dirty habit ryt?!
am tryna stop tho' & yu knw hw dat goes

okay,
it all makes sense naw!

the two hangers r both green & whyt,
& the dorchester cigarette pack is a splash ov fine green!
Finer than that ov the hanger tho',
but it doesnt matter...

dont tell me yu dont get it yet??
its 'green - white - green', dumb dumb! Lol!

i've been known to hav a knack for patriOtiSm*

long arguments bout how its not totali the govt's fault,

and how its our combined efforts that'll only get nigeria to wher she shuld be!

anyways thats that for that! Lol! (dumb, i knw!!...maybe i want yu to think i'm stupid!...'i'd suprised yu!', Lol)

my lil bathroom-sized mirror!
yu knw i have a thing for mirrors, ryt?

nyways, just used it to checkout sumtn yu rili dnt wnt to knw bout!

the bigger one,
a wrought ironed 'rili bIG' mirror wiv all 'em swirls on the sides!

lookin' @ it every mornin' wen i wake up , gives me that unphantomable joy!
yu cant understand even if yu tried!




just hrd 'nwa aba' say sumtn!
- 'this lyf na improvement, improvement' -

concise english translation!
- 'may the best ov ur todays be the worst ov ur 2moroS' -

i'm here fuming,

i can see smoke (literally),
but i doubt they're frm my ears!

twit's @ it again!,
she doesn't quite get it!

i _stnd if a beef's cookn,
wen i'm rung tho'...

but she's miles away,
& on the fone!

& stil thinks the pic she painted
(the one in her head),
is ryt!

based on her interpretatns
ov whr i am;
& prolly wat i'm capable ov!

but i wish she were ryt,
then dis wuld be easier to bear!

i'd try not to let this dampen my spirits,

i'm wiv the guys,
same ol', same ol' !

we're stil al bout that book,
'the rudiments ov the loose cigar'

it brings up discussions,
sumtyms arguments

it has a way of doin' such!
But its fun nonetheless,

despite all that's hapnin arnd me,
i'm fully aware ov my stomach; churnin away!

wat's for brkfst,
(my head's teln me)

chuka just came arnd!
His first spoken words,

not a complete sentence,
just a phrase,

...'i'm hungry' !!!

ok!,
that makes two ov us

i'm stil countin,
on seemingly hopless days lyk dis,
the more the merrier!

tc's down,
& prolly has sum ingredients too!

i rili dnt nid leeches,
so won't count 'em!

wat do i hav asides
a gas burner, sum rice,
cookin' utensils
& 'the tech. knw how'??!

two green notes & a red one!,
i doubt i'm ready to relinquish

i stil hav lil nids asides hunger to meet!

ok,
God rili does kip to his promises!

'nwa aba' just came in naw,
& added a blue note to pack!

nw i can prioritize!
tinned tomatoes can come in.

imagine i'm thinkin' mor lyk sardines,
& they r thinkn fuel!

Pro Evolution Soccer 9!

i dnt do soccer,
so its their fantasy they'd be livin'

nah!
i aint weird (i knw watchu myt be thinkn)
a guy who doesn't play video games!

i'm more ov adventure & racin'

Need for Speed - Underground!
totali addictive!

i haven't read my 'janelle brown'
in a whyl

i miss it,
but i want the feelin to last longer!

bak to my cookin'

i hav dishes to do first,
but havnt' summoned the courage yet

they all think i'm staln for sumtn else
lil do they knw!

oh!
my aux cable stil works!
Chuka's i-touch is playn

a song's blastn thru my stereo speakers,

i knw the song, but too tired to think up its name!

my baby's comin' today!
yeah imma daddy (dint i tel yu?..Lol)

i knw i cant wait to see her,
but she's not the only one i cant wait to see!

my atm card!
in a bid to frugal, i made her go home wiv it!

thats y i had me countin
two green notes & a red one!
whilst i'm used to starin' @ Dr. Clement Isong's face! & the lyks ov 'em!

yeah i knw,
change is constant!

naw i knw all i hav to do is wait this one out!
13/12/09.